Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Long time, no see...

So I wanted to jump in and give a quick update. Life got CRAZY for me and I am afraid that although I have not neglected my weight loss journey (although I could be doing much better) I did completely fall off the blogging wagon.

I am down a total of 10 pounds, which is ridiculous considering I started at the first of the year. I have started C25k though, so things should be getting better quickly.

I want to let you know that I will be abandoning this blog, but I will be sticking with, and updating my original blog with at least one post a week about my weight loss.

You can find me here although, I will not be updating until tomorrow.

God Bless!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Friday Weigh In

I didn't expect much when I stepped on the scale this morning. Womanly issues have made me bloated and miserable and this usually results in a gain on the ole' scale. I was hoping simply not to see an increase. Imagine my surprise and delight when the numbers read 182.5! Woo Hoo! 2.5 lbs seemed so impossible to me I had to double and then triple check to make sure.

I was so uncomfortable and miserable last night all I wanted to do was curl up on the couch with a heating pad, a bowl of potato chips, and a chocolate bar. I'm so glad I didn't. If I can just make it another week without giving in to the hormones I'll be happy and hopefully at least another 2 lbs thinner.

Have a great weekend everyone! I'll see you again on Monday!

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Getting It All In

I want to thank Jo at 282.5:Behind for giving me the topic for today's post. Go check her out, definitely worth the read.

I don't know anyone who has loads of free time. Whether you stay at home, work full time, go to school, have 0 kids or 10, are married or single, I can bet you have a full plate. I know I do. I could go on all day about all the things I do, I'm sure we all could, but we still need to take time to do the things that will preserve our health.

I don't have 2 straight hours a day in which to exercise, I just don't. I have used this in the past as an excuse not to do any exercise at all and that is just sad. Because I couldn't do a full upper and lower body workout plus cardio all at once, I would just skip the exercise all together. I don't believe you need to do it all at once in order to achieve results.

I can come up with 15 minute increments throughout the day, and this is how I exercise now. Think about it this way, none of us sit down a drink all of our daily water intake at one time. We take it one glass at a time. The same thing applies to exercise.

We can do so much, even though it may not seem like it at the time, in little increments. You can do squats in the morning while you are brushing your teeth. Wall push ups while breakfast is cooking. Toe rises while your reading your e-mail. March in place while you cook dinner. Do lunges while you run the sweeper. Turn on some music and dance with your kids. Take a 15 minute walk or run. No, you won't be able to train for a marathon or look like a body builder this way, but you will burn calories and help your body out.

It doesn't have to be all or nothing. Any step forward is a step in the right direction.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

A Shift In Tastes

I am starting to lean towards becoming a vegetarian. In fact if I could find more "real life" vegetarian recipes I probably would have already made the transition. Ironically, I was raised on a beef farm. Red meat was a staple in our household, but that is part of my problem. For 18 years I ate meat that came from cattle that spent their days out on the pasture. We "finshed" them with corn and grain and then had them locally butchered. I ate meat with no dyes, no additives, and no chemicals. Our cattle lived like cattle, not standing in feed lots. I can actually smell and taste the difference in "local" beef and "store" beef. Once I became pregnant with my son I couldn't stand to even be around it anymore. Now that the USDA (or is it the FDA) is requiring meat to be labeled with it's source, I am amazed to see where it is coming from. None of the local grocery stores have had meat strictly from the USA. It has all been a combination of several countries. I don't know about you, but that is scary to me.

We have 60 acres here, and I could easily raise my own cattle for beef, but I honestly just don't have it in me anymore. I would be the one doing the feeding and care and I have just become too soft to kill and eat an animal I raised.

In my search for vegetarian recipes I cam across several published in a book by Dr. Dean Ornish. Our local hospital uses the Dr. Dean Ornish Program for Reversing Heart Disease and I was interesting in finding out more about it. I am impressed with what he has to say. He isn't promoting a fad diet, etc. but a lifestyle that will make you as healthy as possible. The more I read, the more I think my decision just may be a great one for me.

We will see how it goes. My husband is going to be less than thrilled, so I will still be cooking with chicken and fish. Yes, I know that the same issues apply to those too, but as of right now the smell and taste of them does not make me ill like beef or pork do.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Still Here

Wow, what a week! Just to let everyone know I am still here, and no I didn't fall off the wagon. I live so far out that I am connected to the web via dial up, and last week I could not maintain a connection long enough to post. Thankfully a local cable company has already strung lines across my property, but it may be several more months before they install service. There are pros and cons to being a rural gal.

I didn't behave quite as well as I should last week and as a result a 1/2 pound came creeping back, but as I cannot go back in time, only forward, I am letting it go and plugging away.

I apologize for such a short post, but my inbox is flooded and I have lots of catching up to do on the blogs I read. Rest assured I will be back in full force tomorrow.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Good Monday

I had been avoiding church, as well as any other public places, in order to keep my son from being exposed to the H1N1 virus. I'm not usually one to panic over something like the flu, but a local friend of mine lost her sister to H1N1. Her sister was only in her thirties and the shock of it really made an impact on me. Rest assured I am not a helicopter mom, but even before her passing, the voice in my head cautioned me over and over that it was critical to do everything I could to protect him from exposure. I choose to listen to that inner voice, particularly when it speaks to me about my son. I have chosen to ignore the voice a few times in the past and regretted it each time.

Yesterday we were able to attend church services again as a family and I just can't get over what a difference it made in my mood. I feel renewed and lifted.

This morning I got up early and was actually able to get in some "me" time before my son woke up, and I've even managed to start cutting a few fabric blocks for a charm swap. I don't know about you, but I find it so much easier to complete my workouts etc. when my day starts off right.

I've managed to cut my soda intake down to 1 a day, which is a major accomplishment for me, and I've stayed on track with my water consumption. Now that I have my routine down it is time to start working on my food choices. More on that tomorrow.

Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door. I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. -Revelation 3:20

Friday, January 8, 2010

Friday Weigh-In

Yesterday was a total bust for me and honestly I don't know why. I spent my day like a toad on a log. I just couldn't get motivated to do anything. I blogged about exercise, but then didn't even bother to do any. I can't even tell you why I didn't drink any water. I just didn't. I hate days like that. I'm not going to let it set a precedent though. Today is a new day and I'm going strong.

My Friday morning weigh in.................184.5! Yippe!!! 2 pounds down! I'm happy with this number considering that my eating was not all that great and I completely skipped one whole day of water and exercise.

T'was the month after Christmas, and all through the house,
nothing would fit me, not even a blouse;
The cookies I'd nibbled, the eggnog I had to taste,
at the holiday parties had gone to my waist;

When I got on the scales there arose such a number!
When I walked to the store (less a walk than a lumber),
I'd remember the marvelous meals I'd prepared,
The gravies and sauces and beef nicely rared;

The wine and the rum balls; the bread and the cheese,
and the way I'd never said, "No thank you, please."
As I dressed myself in my husband's old shirt,
and prepared once again to do battle with dirt,
I said to myself, as only I can,
"You can't spend a winter disguised as a man!"

So, away with the last of the sour cream dip.
Get rid of the fruit cake, every cracker and chip.
Every last bit of food that I like must be banished,
'til all the additional ounces have vanished.

I won't have a cookie--not even a lick.
I'll want only to chew on a long celery stick.
I won't have hot biscuits, or corn bread, or pie,
I'll munch on a carrot and quietly cry.

I'm hungry, I'm lonesome, and life is a bore,
But isn't that what January is for?
Unable to giggle, no longer a riot.
Happy New Year to all and to all a good diet!

Author Unknown

Thursday, January 7, 2010

No $$ Needed

You do not need a gym membership or fancy exercise equipment to get into shape. You can achieve your goals, if you are willing to put in the work, using your own body as resistance. Fitness is free.

I feel I should start this post with a disclaimer. I am not a fitness professional. I am not a medical professional. I am not a member of any branch of the U.S. Armed Forces. I am blogging my own personal journey and what works for me and what has worked for me in the past. You should consult your physician before beginning any exercise program.

There, now that I have that out of the way I want to show you something.

The gal in that picture is me...many years ago. (and yes I dyed my hair back then) This picture was taken outside the barracks while I was on a "rec" period during my first year of summer encampment at Camp Dawson, in Kingwood, WV.

I was trying to get the guy in the pic to turn around so my fiend, who had a crush, could snap the photo. I wish I had been wearing shorts and a tank top in this picture so you could see the muscle definition, but you'll just have to trust me.

I was "cut" and in the best shape of my life. I was one of a handful of female R.O.T.C. cadets and I could keep up with the best of the "guys" and even roll quite a few of them in the dirt. I had never stepped foot in a gym, or lifted a weight (other than hay bales) in my life. I got that way with good old fashioned exercises that do not cost a dime.

I'm not going to try to describe all the exercises I used back then. You can go here for the calisthenic exercises used by the U.S. Army. Will you get the same results as a body builder? No, but you can get fit and tone this way and who can beat free?

As a stay at home mom my family does not have the extra money to spend on gym memberships,a Bowflex, or home treadmills. Yes, a gym membership is great. I LOVED having a personal trainer at the gym when I was in my early 20's. I enjoyed my student Y membership, and I would love to have a home gym. You can achieve beautiful results with professional equipment and training. But, if your goal is weight loss and fitness you can also achieve those goals with nothing more than a good pair of shoes. I did it many years ago and I'm going to do it now.

Yesterday I:

Drank 4- 6 oz glasses of water
Completed miles 1,2, and 3 of The 5 Mile Fat Burning Walk
Completed 10 girl push ups
Completed 50 sit ups

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Beautiful Blessings

I'm so glad God's plan for me is not my own. I'm so glad He sees fit to provide me with beautiful gifts I would have missed out on left to my own devices.

As soon as my son woke up from his nap yesterday I made sure he was happily playing with his toys and put in my workout DVD. The music started and I began to move, suddenly his little voice rang out with peals of laughter. He jumped up and ran over to me and started marching in place just like mommy, squealing with laughter the entire time. As I continued to work out he ran around me giggling and throwing himself around the back of my legs. I had to pick him up so he would no get hurt (adding about 21 pounds of resistance *lol*) and he squealed even more as he bounced up and down in my arms. Once the intensity picked up to an in place jog I had to put him down. I simply jogged around in a tiny little circle chasing him as he ran. By the time the first mile was over I was laughing so hard I could barely breathe. What a great way to workout!

When my husband came home from work I decided he had to see it fist hand, so I popped in my DVD and began mile 2. Sure enough, my little man ran over and started working out with mommy. I thought my husband was going to fall in the floor laughing.

The unbelievable thing to me is that children were never in my plans. I grew up hard. I felt that I had already raised a child (me) and did not want to raise another. Truthfully, part of me was terrified that I'd never be able to be the kind of mother a child deserved. I was afraid of turning out like my mother. I also have physical issues that doctors told me would make it near impossible for me to become pregnant much less carry a child. My husband and I discussed this before we married. Although he loves children, he had been married before and he and his first wife were unable to conceive. Medical testing showed that due to "slow swimmers" the chance of him being able to produce a child without medical intervention was slim to none.
The first year of our marriage I took "the pill" just in case. The hormones didn't agree with me so I stopped taking them. After 5 years of marriage my husband and I had no reason to believe the doctors were wrong. We lived life the way we wanted, and never gave it a second thought. Then in late summer of 2007, I ended up pregnant. I'll save the story of my pregnancy for another time, but after much struggle we ended up with a beautiful baby boy.

The strangest thing about it was that I NEVER had a moment of not wanting my son. Despite never wanting children, despite the huge surprise that changed my entire world, I wanted this little boy from the moment I saw those pink lines. I believe that he is a gift from God and we were meant to have him at the exact moment he came.

My precious little boy worked out with his mommy again this morning. I know that not only is he having fun, he's also learning the habit of exercise. Even though he does not know it, he's giving me all the motivation in the world.

Yesterday I:
Drank 3-16 oz glasses of water (one less than my goal)
Completed Mile 1 and Mile 2 of 5 Mile Fat burning Walk
Did 10 girl push ups

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


Yesterday I came to a realization that may make all the difference in the world for me.

You see I'm a perfectionist. There, I said it out loud for the world to hear. The problem with being a perfectionist is that I am NOT perfect. Far from it. Being a perfectionist means that when I start a "plan" and slip up I immediately feel like a failure and must start over. I leave no room for mistakes. You know, the mindset that says, "Hey I ate this forbidden snack cake for breakfast so I might as well eat this Big Mac and Fries for lunch, and because I've done that I might as well eat chips and drink soda all day because I've blown it." "I'll just start over next week." Except when next week comes I will not be perfect then either.

So many of us fall into this trap when dieting. We think that if we make one mistake we might as well forget it for the day. The thing is, nothing says if we make one bad choice we no longer have the right to choose. I think this has finally clicked for me. I am determined to no longer feel like a failure because of one bad choice.

I drank a soda at lunch today. Guess what? I'm drinking my water now. Would it have been better for me to have skipped the soda? Definitely, but it would have been worse to have eaten my husband's Devil Cremes too because I had already blown it. I'm going to log off after my son wakes up and exercises. One soda will not ruin my day!

Yesterday I managed:

2-16 oz glasses of water. (half of my 64 oz goal)
1 mile of Leslie Sansone's 5 Mile Fat Burning Walk

Monday, January 4, 2010

Why Do They Do That?

It is Monday, the start of a brand new week. I don't know about you, but I'm ready.

My weekend went well. But it wasn't without challenges. My thoughts for the today came as a result of my nephew's birthday party. Why do people try so hard to sabotage your weight loss?

I HATE (and yes, I used that word) eating around my husband's family. I'm overweight, but it isn't because I eat huge portions at meal times, although I do eat more than I should. It is because I make the wrong food choices, and have a hideous sugar addiction. Anyway, every time there is a gathering it goes like this:

Family: Is that all you are going to eat?
Me: Yes
F: Why, I thought you liked_______?
M: I do, but I didn't want any today.
F: Why, isn't it good?
M: It is fine, I just didn't want any today.
F: Well, you don't have enough on your plate.
M: I got what I wanted, it is fine.
F: Why aren't you eating.
M: I am eating.

I'll spare you the rest of the dialogue, but it always ends with someone telling me I don't need to lose weight, insisting on it, and then going on and on. Seriously? I know that people are trying to be nice and not hurt feelings, but I have a mirror and I've viewed the pictures.

My mother had her first heart attack at forty, my father is diabetic, one grandfather died of heart disease, the other of cancer. I need to be healthy for my son and yet I find no support. I've already explained the in-laws. My husband? Well, he gets mad at me for not buying all the junk food we both love to eat and complains about healthy dinner choices. He can't understand that if it is in the house, I'll eat it.

Support or not, I'm going to do this. I need it for me, and I need it for my son.

Each day I will be posting the previous day's workouts, successes and failures. I will weigh in every Friday. The weekends are non-blogging days for me as I spend that time with my husband.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Weekly Goals

My Goals for this week are:

1. Drink at least 8 glasses of water daily.
I drink entirely too much soda and because I have an allergy to aspartame I am drinking my calories.

2. Exercise for at least 30 minutes daily.

I purchased Leslie Sansone's 5 Mile Fat Burning Walk to make this easier during the winter weather

3. Eat no junk food.

I'll start with small goals and add as I get into the swing of things.

50 Extra Pounds

Normally I'm not a resolution kind of gal but this year my brain "kicked my butt into gear" just in time for January 1st. I'm hoping my momentum and the momentum of those sharing my journey will propel us all onto a brighter and better 2010.

Being overweight can steal your entire identity. I talked yesterday about the missing me, the woman that is dying to get out. People can't see that woman any more. All they see is this:

This picture was taken at my son's first birthday party in May. I am honestly ashamed to put this in his scrapbook (much less post it here).

When people who don't know me ask me about my life, they see the woman in the picture. They can't imagine that this woman works with horses, much less rides them. (Isn't that a thin person's sport?) She obviously needs help loading that 100 pound sack of feed. (If she's that heavy she obviously sits around on her behind.) She wouldn't be interested in the hiking group at church. (She doesn't look like the type that likes to walk). I could go on, but I think you get my point. Nothing is more discouraging than to have people look at you like you are a liar when you talk about the things that make you, you.

I am on my way to changing it! No more excuses!